As the festivities come to an end and the new year begins I wanted to share my thoughts and reflect on the year that was 2017! I did this last year for 2016 and to me it felt like I was closing one book to start a new one with a clear and positive attitude – so I’m making this a thing – expect the same thing next New Year OK?!
I’ve had heartburn everyday since my Christmas tree went up and the first jar of pickles were cracked open – but I have thougherly enjoyed this Christmas, I usually work Christmas Eve – and don’t actually mind it, but this year me & Rhys we’re both off and it was glorious! It’s genuinely the first Christmas I’ve seen Rhys actually relaxed and wasn’t worrying about driving here there and everywhere.
As a whole 2017 was a much more positive year – full of incredible memories. My best friend brought a beautiful baby girl into the world, my other best friend asked my to be her bridesmaid, I celebrated with Rhys in Disney world Florida as he turned 30 (I will be sharing some of my Florida trip in the next few posts – for anyone thats interested) and we got to cross so many things off our bucket list. I got to make more memories with my family – afternoon teas and Christmas markets with my parents & another great Christmas spent with family playing games, drinking, eating and laughing. It was the perfect end to the year.
What did 2017 teach me? That I need to worry less, that I have an actual addiction to make up and that I’m struggling more than I even knew to deal with social anxiety and pushing myself out of my comfort zone – so in 2018 I will continue to push myself and feel better about socialising.
What do I want from 2018; to make more memories with my parents & to try and take better care of myself. Its as simple as that – I want to feel healthier and prettier but I’m not putting pressure on myself. My happiness is feeling comfortable in my own skin and being able to see friends and do normal things without breaking down.
As always I want to thank my family and friends for constantly loving me and supporting me through the good and bad. I love you all for being so special and my biggest goal of 2018 is to give back to you all, I want to try and make plans and more memories with each and every one of you. I want to give a special mention to Rhys who has been my rock for over 5 years now – I know not everyday is easy when your in a relationship with me – but I hope the good outweighs the tough times. Im forever grateful to have someone who loves me unconditionally and knows how to deal with my issues with me. My only regret is that I didn’t find you sooner. I love you.
I’m spending the first day of 2018 with Rhys & Keeks – going for a nice walk around the pond to brush off the cobwebs, and then we are having a Sunday lunch at home followed by a duvet eve watching Les Miserables – I’m feeling very content and loved.
Heres to 2017 being a good year of growth – and to 2018, the year I make more memories.