Lets be real, for anyone that knows me personally – it will come as no surprise when I say 2016 has been shite! Actually that’s the understatement of the year – 2016 has been the most draining, negative (with small bursts of positive), mentally challenging and overwhelming time of my life.
I can’t say its been all bad, I have had a magical Christmas that was packed with festive shenanigans and quality time spent with family and friends. Not to mention a trip to Krakow to stay in my favourite hotel which was heaven!
As I sit here binge watching Gossip Girl in Christmas pyjamas I can feel im not myself, but im more myself than I have felt for most of this year – and that’s a celebration for me. I experienced mental health take over most aspects of my life this year, I felt grief from loosing family members, I cried happy tears and I cried sad tears.
I’ve reflected on my year and I feel like I could sleep for the first half of 2017! Trying to stay positive though I’ve never thought about myself so much as I have this year – forced to talk about my feelings, consciously trying to relax to prevent anxiety attacks, taking time out to find new hobbies.
Looking forward to 2017 I have a list as long as my arm of what I need to focus on – being as organised as possible and to blog more! Learning to deal with social anxiety and pushing myself out of my comfort zone so I can finally go to the pub with Louise after rain checking for 2 years! They are some of my goals for the year – as well as making time to clean my make up brushes more often – I have GOT to make more time for that!
I know a lot of my close friends and family will read this so I want to take the opportunity to thank each and every one of you that carried me through the dark days I’ve had this year, for the texts to cheer me up, the shoulders to cry on, the hand that filled my glass! Not one of you gave up on me and that’s what got me up in the mornings. I love you all dearly and appreciate you beyond what your aware of.
So here’s to a new year with new obstacles and new memories to be made – im determined to make this year count.
Happy New Year to my nearest and dearest.